Melanie (realitysgonemad) wrote in fallen_souls,

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I am scared..

I am so scared right now. I don't know what to do about Ellen. She is cutting, but she is getting out of hand, and she's only 13 years old. She cuts everyday and for no reason. She thinks it's funny, and she laughs after she cuts. She's going to far. She's almost killed herself twice from cutting. One night she cut her vein, and she wouldn't stop bleeding, and she just said she was going to go to sleep, she woke up the next morning and she was still bleeding, she's really lucky she didn't die. One time she cut herself 117 times, just to test out "her new razor". Me and Justine are so scared, and she wont listen to us, no matter what we said. That's what I was crying about yesterday. She has damn cutting parties, where she gets a friend who cuts, and just cuts with them. I would never do that, I never cut for no reason, I cut when i'm really depressed, and something pushes me. I try not to cut, it's not like I want to. She wants to! She thinks it's funny. No matter what we say it wont make a difference, and that scares me. I don't know how long I will be able to handle it, and I hate when she shows me or talks about them. You don't flaunt that shit, to anybody. I know her and Carol just do it for attention, and that fucking bothers me. Me and Justine want to tell her mom, but we don't. I told Justine we have to, because this is life threatening, and I'm so scared as fuck. I will fucking tell their mom if I fucking have to. I will not let her die, and I know I have to do something about it soon, before she ends up doing something even more stupid then like cutting her vein a little. Justine said she wanted to talk to Ellen before she talked to her mom, although that wont make a difference, Ellen wont stop, and I don't know what to do. What should I do?

for those of you who don't know, ellen is my best friend, and justine is her sister
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